This is the beginning of a new journey. My very first post on a blog. I’m going to be upfront about my goals for this blog. I want it to be successful and viewed by many. Hopefully, it will become my new career.
I quit my job today. My job was relatively well-paying, had good benefits and had a flexible schedule. It was 100% remote, requiring no commute. Yet, I still wasn’t happy in this job. It has been a non-stop internal debate in my head on whether or not I should quit this job. Worry was the issue that was stopping me. I was worried what my parents would say if I quit my job. I was worried that I would be financially less secure if I quit my job. I was worried that people would call me entitled because I quit a great-paying job with good benefits to strike out on my own by writing a seemingly silly blog.
Unfortunately, I have been having anxiety for a while now. This job has been leaving me less and less fulfilled as the days go on. It has been leaving me more and more bored, and less and less challenged. Call me crazy, but I miss being hungry. Not in a literal sense, but being hungry to succeed. To build something from scratch and see it grow as more time and effort are invested into it. I miss the hunger. I miss being desperate. I’ve gotten too comfortable.
I haven’t slept well these last few months. The anxiety has been getting to me. My father had a saying: “when it comes to fear or anxiety, the only way out is through. You can only avoid it for so long”. This rings true about me quitting my job to start a blog. It means I will be less financially secure. I will not have health insurance, dental insurance, vision insurance for the foreseeable time being. It means I will have to work long days and nights just to launch this blog off the ground for months or even years. My soul will be hungry. It means I will become desperate.
Fear can be your best friend or your worst enemy. Really, it’s neutral. It’s a matter of how you respond to that fear that determines your relationship with it. For me, I can only choose to respond by going through it. The only way out is through. That’s why I’m starting this journey.
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